I was 27, and overwhelmingly caught up in the adventure of seeking and finding God when I first picked up Augustine's Confessions. In there, I found an echo of my own story, summed up in his powerful poem Late have I loved you.
Today, on his feast, I re-read those words, and remember my own journey. I remember that restlessness, that search for "more", before I knew that the "more" I was seeking was God. Like Augustine I searched for God, for fulfilment, outside myself, in created things, before the search took me, unawares, within, into deeper depths than I could ever have imagined. I remember that moment when God broke through, overwhelming me with his Love, requiring a response... and then, like Augustine, I too found myself saying "I have tasted you, and now I hunger and thirst for more..."
The rest, as they say, is history! - and you can read more about where the journey has taken - and continues to take - me on our vocations and province websites (links on the right). It's still an amazing adventure!
late have I loved you!
You were within me,
but I was outside,
and it was there
that I searched for you.
In my unloveliness
I plunged into the lovely things
which you created.
You were with me,
but I was not with you.
Created things kept me from you;
yet if they had not been in you
they would not have been at all.
You called, you shouted,
and you broke through my deafness.
You flashed, you shone,
and you dispelled my blindness.
You breathed your fragrance on me;
I drew in breath
and now I pant for you.
I have tasted you;
now I hunger and thirst for more.
You touched me,
and I burned for your peace.